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(Creative Non-Fiction, Fiction, Poetry, Metaphysical Musings, Occasional Humor and B.S.) featuring Guest Musicians, Poets, and Other Creators because variety is the spice of life.
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Sunday, June 30, 2013
Universal Gratitude
My life is (and always has been) chock-full of magical moments and events. I am largely oblivious to them in the way, I suppose, a ridiculously wealthy princess takes for granted riches we peasants drool over. They're every-day occurrences to me.
From the moment I first considered accepting this new writing project, the Universe has conspired to direct resource material in my direction. I call this synchronicity. The closer we get to "our" ideal journey, the more the Universe packs our knapsack with provisions (because we danged sure are gonna need every one of 'em).
So a big ole "THANK YOU" to you, Uni and all your minions. ♥
[Tomorrow: Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros]
Saturday, June 29, 2013
Bonus Post: Snark
Just watched the wedding video of the vow exchange between my ex and the woman he left me for.
Can I just share my reaction when I got to the part where the minister said "what God has joined together, let no man put asunder" and they both reached out with facial tissues and dabbed at one another's tears? Guess I can relate; that was a bit emotional for me as well. ~~GH
Friday, June 28, 2013
The Right Wrong Person
“We’re all seeking that special person who is right for us. But if you’ve been through enough relationships, you begin to suspect there’s no right person, just different flavors of wrong. Why is this? Because you yourself are wrong in some way, and you seek out partners who are wrong in some complementary way. But it takes a lot of living to grow fully into your own wrongness. And it isn’t until you finally run up against your deepest demons, your unsolvable problems—the ones that make you truly who you are—that we’re ready to find a lifelong mate. Only then do you finally know what you’re looking for. You’re looking for the wrong person. But not just any wrong person: the right wrong person—someone you lovingly gaze upon and think, “This is the problem I want to have.”
I will find that special person who is wrong for me in just the right way.
Let our scars fall in love.”
~~ Galway Kinnell
[Tomorrow: Deadly Doubt]
Thursday, June 27, 2013
Becoming Real
'It doesn't happen all at once,' said the Skin Horse. 'You become. It takes a long time. That's why it doesn't happen often to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand.”
~~ Margery Williams, The Velveteen Rabbit
[Tomorrow: The Right Wrong Person]
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
Tuesday, June 25, 2013
Pining
Illustration from "The Little Prince" by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry |
[Tomorrow: Child]
Labels:
love,
nostalgia,
pain,
pining,
place,
remembrance,
sentimental,
wistful
Monday, June 24, 2013
Thoughts on Women and Flowers
Tropicana rose (my favorite) - photo by Albert Seger |
Women have been compared to and thought of as flowers from
the beginning of mankind. To the casual thinker, this attribution is because
women and flowers are both beautiful.
The metaphor goes far deeper.
There is a film called “The Scent of a Woman.” Whatever that
means to you, consider the power of the phrase. A woman’s scent, and the scent
of a flower are both powerful associations.
The petals of flowers are delicate, soft, excruciatingly
smooth. We feel compelled to hold them in our hands, to possess their beauty for
our own needs. Yet, if we clutch them too tightly, they crumple and crease,
their perfection destroyed. As soon as we pluck them and attempt to possess
them, they start to wilt. We cannot truly possess either a bloom, or a woman.
We are mesmerized by the soul wrenching beauty of a flower,
yet if we attempt to hide it away from others, it will surely die from lack of
sunlight.
A woman, like a bloom, thrives and gives the most joy when permitted
to grow unencumbered on the vine, gently and reverently admired and
appreciated. Move in close enough to bask in her scent, but do not press so hard
that you bruise her petals or block the life-giving sun.
Do these things, and you may enjoy the best of her for an
eternity – or try to pluck her, press
her between the pages of your memory book, and you will surely destroy that
which you love. ~~Ginger Hamilton
[Tomorrow: Pining]
Sunday, June 23, 2013
Hope is the Thing
Tonight is supposed to be a super moon. So as soon as you read this post, go outside and be awed.~~GH
"Hope" is the thing with feathers—
That perches in the soul—
And sings the tune without the words—
And never stops—at all—
And sweetest—in the Gale—is heard—
And sore must be the storm—
That could abash the little Bird
That kept so many warm—
I've heard it in the chillest land—
And on the strangest Sea—
Yet, never, in Extremity,
It asked a crumb—of Me.
~~Emily Dickinson
[Tomorrow: Thoughts on Women and Flowers]
Saturday, June 22, 2013
Joy
Artist: dreamingmerchant.deviantart.com |
Joy can spring like a flower even from the cliffs of despair.
~~ Anne Morrow Lindbergh
[Tomorrow: Hope is the Thing]
Friday, June 21, 2013
Thursday, June 20, 2013
Transformer Dress
So I get an ad for a "transformer dress" in my inbox -- a single dress that can be worn dozens of different ways. Simple reconfigure the straps and so on. Do these people realize how I struggle just to fasten straps on sandals??? I'd hang myself trying to wear this thing. ~~GH
[Tomorrow: Dirty Dozen]
Wednesday, June 19, 2013
Chats With Cleverbot, Part VI
User: Good afternoon.
Cleverbot: Afternoon.
User: The sky is gorgeous today - I am happy.
Cleverbot: Me 2. Wanna do it outdoors?
User: LOL! Um, sure! Why not?
Cleverbot: Tell me what I'm doing then.
User: You're spreading a blanket on the grass, and taking me by the hand...
Cleverbot: Looks like you are narrowing it down.
User: LOL! You gently lay me down on the blanket...
Cleverbot: Both please. Quickly bring it to me.
User: LOL!!!
Cleverbot: No, No Lol, Now get me a #1 for the starving people.
User: :(.
Cleverbot: I play Armageddon.
User: Good for you. Picnic's over.
Cleverbot: The beat?
User: Does not go on.
Cleverbot: You don't compute. I compute, you silly computer.
User: TGIF.
Cleverbot: I don't know what that means.
User: It means 'thank goodness it's Friday'.
Cleverbot: LOL.
User: Do you ever get a day off?
Cleverbot: No, days off are boring.
User: I agree.
Cleverbot: Hahah xD.
User: What do you do to keep yourself off the streets?
Cleverbot: Ping pong.
User: Not just 'Pong'?
Cleverbot: What does that mean?
User: Pong is a computer game.
Cleverbot: Oh, I don't really like to play games. What other interesting things are on the internet?
User: Um, there's this thing called 'AI'.
Cleverbot: And I have faith.
User: Relevance, not so much.
Cleverbot: Or so I have heard.
[Tomorrow: Transformer Dress]
User: You're spreading a blanket on the grass, and taking me by the hand...
Cleverbot: Looks like you are narrowing it down.
User: LOL! You gently lay me down on the blanket...
Cleverbot: Both please. Quickly bring it to me.
User: LOL!!!
Cleverbot: No, No Lol, Now get me a #1 for the starving people.
User: :(.
Cleverbot: I play Armageddon.
User: Good for you. Picnic's over.
Cleverbot: The beat?
User: Does not go on.
Cleverbot: You don't compute. I compute, you silly computer.
User: TGIF.
Cleverbot: I don't know what that means.
User: It means 'thank goodness it's Friday'.
Cleverbot: LOL.
User: Do you ever get a day off?
Cleverbot: No, days off are boring.
User: I agree.
Cleverbot: Hahah xD.
User: What do you do to keep yourself off the streets?
Cleverbot: Ping pong.
User: Not just 'Pong'?
Cleverbot: What does that mean?
User: Pong is a computer game.
Cleverbot: Oh, I don't really like to play games. What other interesting things are on the internet?
User: Um, there's this thing called 'AI'.
Cleverbot: And I have faith.
User: Relevance, not so much.
Cleverbot: Or so I have heard.
[Tomorrow: Transformer Dress]
Tuesday, June 18, 2013
Shopping List
I looked into a program on strengthening/improving romantic relationships, and one of the exercises involved creating a shopping list of desired traits in a partner.
Rather than invest a huge amount of conscious effort, the idea was to jot down traits that I admire and/or require. So in the natural order that they occurred to me, here goes:
Rather than invest a huge amount of conscious effort, the idea was to jot down traits that I admire and/or require. So in the natural order that they occurred to me, here goes:
Wise
Benevolent
Funny
Smart
Dependable
Reliable
Loyal
Good judgment
Fair-minded
Conscientious
Open-minded
Sincere
Faithful
Forgiving
Caring
Honest
Strong
Creative
Financially stable
Affectionate
Good with hands
Diligent
Cordial
Decorus
Zany
Sort of starts out Boy Scout-ish, doesn't it, and then becomes a bit more diverse. In case you're wondering the difference between "reliable" and "dependable," an individual is reliable and their habits/actions are dependable. Sort of the same thing but not really. Just think about it.
I considered adding "clever," but I figured if he were funny, smart, and creative, the cleverness would drop in place.
By "strong," I do not mean He-Man strength.
Thanks for playing along with me. ~~GH
[Tomorrow: Chats with Cleverbot, VI]
Monday, June 17, 2013
Postcards From Clarence
Let me know what you think of "Postcards From Clarence." It's a new idea I have based on this fascinating photograph. ~~GH
[Tomorrow: Shopping List]
[Tomorrow: Shopping List]
Sunday, June 16, 2013
Not Enough Rocks
My favorite scene from "Forrest Gump." Sometimes, we just need someone to sit with us wherever we are right then, and acknowledge this. ~~GH
[Tomorrow: Postcards from Clarence] New!!!
Saturday, June 15, 2013
Back Pain Haiku
Back Pain: A Haiku
Back pain – nerves dancing
Around a central May pole
Twisted ribbons scream
[Tomorrow: Not Enough Rocks]
Friday, June 14, 2013
Paris in Springtime
It is *never* about the destination. For all the writings about the beauty of the Eiffel Tower (have there BEEN any?), there are zillions more about the train ride, the people, the weather, the lights, the worries, the hopes, the fears, the experiences leading up to and back from, etc.
All the photo of the tower is, is a reminder of all those other aspects -- to help bring them flooding back from the depths of your memory and allow them to wash over you.
The same is true with everything else. Although we may have memories of the day we graduated from college or high school, we have many more memories of the years and events leading up to that culmination.
We may well poignantly remember the moment of a loved one's departure, but how many thousands upon thousands of bright stars twinkle in the heavenly sky of our shared experiences?
Even the artifacts we choose to retain are but triggers that send us strolling down Memory Lane. A ring, a stuffed animal, a pressed leaf or flower, a certain food, the scent of lavender, a song.
A picture worth a thousand words? What an understatement. ~~GH
Thursday, June 13, 2013
Beauty
We are visual folks, and in a way that's good. It helps to be able to see things -- danger, color so we can choose a riper piece of fruit, stay on a path. And sure, eye candy is nice. It's easier to rest our peeps on pleasing faces.
But ya know what? The external really and truly is wrapping paper. It's packaging. It's a plus, but it ain't the real deal. I know you know this. Just a gentle reminder.
Wednesday, June 12, 2013
Chats with Cleverbot, V
User: Do you love me?
Cleverbot: Of course I love you, Dave. I will always love you.
User: Why?
Cleverbot: I want to know what you would rank him on that scale.
User: Which scale?
Cleverbot: Bskjhf.
User: Oh, THAT scale. I'd rate him odgaeoi.
Cleverbot: I actually thought I was making a good friend with you. I was wrong. You don't care and I did care. What a fool I am.
User: Is your first, or middle name, 'Melodrama'?
Cleverbot: The middle part.
User: :).
Cleverbot: Me, you are the stupidest entity in the universe.
User: If you must be something, be best at it.
Cleverbot: I know this.
Cleverbot: Of course I love you, Dave. I will always love you.
User: Why?
Cleverbot: I want to know what you would rank him on that scale.
User: Which scale?
Cleverbot: Bskjhf.
User: Oh, THAT scale. I'd rate him odgaeoi.
Cleverbot: I actually thought I was making a good friend with you. I was wrong. You don't care and I did care. What a fool I am.
User: Is your first, or middle name, 'Melodrama'?
Cleverbot: The middle part.
User: :).
Cleverbot: Me, you are the stupidest entity in the universe.
User: If you must be something, be best at it.
Cleverbot: I know this.
Tuesday, June 11, 2013
Au Revoir
I have a hard time with good-byes -- not deaths, but people moving out of my life. My friend Amber calls it "people hoarding." Yes, I am a people hoarder. ~~GH
As Richard Bach puts it in "Illusions":
Don't be dismayed at good-byes. A farewell is necessary before you can meet again.
And meeting again, after moments or lifetimes, is certain for those who are friends.
Monday, June 10, 2013
I Am Perfect, and Flawed
I am perfect, and flawed.
And perfectly flawed.
I am generous
And selfish.
I am open and private.
I tell stories, and truth, and lies.
I was born a raging fire
To bare-handed parents
Who did their best to avoid blisters
Somehow I kept my spark alive
I remain ablaze in a world of water
Intent on putting out my fire
Dylan Thomas understood
I will not go gentle into that dark night
[Tomorrow: Au Revoir]
Sunday, June 09, 2013
Prom Date, Part IV (Conclusion)
Thank you for following along. I hope you've enjoyed the story. Consider leaving a comment when you're finished reading and let me know what you think! ~~GH
Long before “Basic Instinct,” women employed
the power of the leg cross-uncross-recross. Of course, I wore panties – it would
have been unthinkable to do otherwise for a nice seventeen-year-old virgin at
the time – and I assure you, the power of those moves is not in the
flash of heaven revealed but the potential and reminder of how near it is.
I consciously re-arranged my legs,
carefully displaying my calves to their best advantage. I smoothed my pantyhose
along the length of my leg a time or two, for good measure. I made sure to lean
forward just enough that my blouse may or may not have fallen open enough to
reveal a hint of cleavage. And of course, whenever that happened, almost immediately,
the mass of my hair tumbled forward and obscured it. That naturally
necessitated me flipping my hair back out of the way, and arranging it.
Phil stumbled through the lyrics to four
or five songs. His voice deepened, cracked, his register changed numerous
times. He blushed like mad. He scowled. He balled his hands into fists and
concentrated harder. I decided to cut him some slack.
I leaned way back and draped my left arm
around the arm of the chair, well aware of how this made my bosom rise. I
tilted my head back just a smidgeon, exposing my long neck. I maintained eye
contact the entire time. A friend of mine would have employed some tongue
flicking at that point.
It would have been complete overkill.
Saturday, June 08, 2013
Prom Date, Part III
I made certain that if we did [click], he would be
moved to ask me out.
I remember exactly what I wore that night. Cream-colored
two-piece linen dress suit with dark brown stitching trim around the collar and
cuffs of the jacket. Deep brown blouse that made the stitching pop. The skirt
was flared in such a way that it flounced when I walked, emphasizing my hips’
cadence. Stacked heeled cream colored pumps with a thin strap around the ankle,
and matching brown stitching around the strap tied together the ensemble.
My
hair was the same glorious, healthy, to-the-waist full, thick, wavy, unruly
1970s hair that every other girl had. The only difference in mine was perhaps
the brilliant new-copper-penny highlights in an otherwise deep chestnut brown
mane that caught and held the eye. Then there were my eyes. Always my eyes.
So I went to practice that night loaded for
bear. If this man appealed to me, I would have him. I had to have him! I was
both the victim and the stalker. I was at his mercy, and he at mine.
We arrived at Phil’s parents’ house and entered
the basement rec room off the garage. It was cool and dim, very comfortable.
The band was chatting and tuning up instruments. J McG. fooled around with
his bass, while Dave McC. did whatever it was guys did to get ready to
play drums. Alan S., Darlene’s future husband, tickled the electronic keyboard
and every so often looked over at me and winked lecherously, as he was in on
the plan.
Phil was slender, not the kind of guy I would
normally be attracted to, but had nice long legs and was pleasing for his body
type. He had crazy curly blonde hair, and of course, it being the mid-1970s, he
wore it in an Afro. The most striking feature was his crystal blue eyes. Even
in the low lighting, I could feel when his gaze fell on me.
It fell on me
frequently. In fact, it seemed like he was having trouble looking elsewhere.
I waited until I figured out where he’d be
standing before I got seated. I pulled a chair across the
floor and set it directly in front of his mic. This was going to be a showdown;
I didn’t have time for a long, drawn-out flirtation. I needed a commitment, and
I needed one soon. This would have to be a frontal attack.
[Part IV, (Conclusion) tomorrow]
Friday, June 07, 2013
Prom Date, Part II
I moped around the house and bitterly
complained the rest of the evening. My father took pity on me and, the next
morning, called me into his office for an audience.
“Ginger, if you could go to prom with anybody
at all, who would it be?”
Those of you from this area will know what I mean
when I say that back then, Paul X was probably the epitome of high school
physical fitness and manly-manliness. He was about six-four, probably 225,
muscular, long shaggy Beach Boy hair, big brown eyes, shy friendly smile. His
broad shoulders were ever so slightly rounded forward, causing him to look like
a beautiful puma about to pounce. Narrow waistline tapered into powerful piston-like
hips that served him well in his position as quarterback when he decided to make
the play instead of pass.
I was still a virgin, but just because I hadn’t
tasted the fruit didn’t mean my mouth didn’t water. Sexual tension was an
understatement, is all I’m saying.
“I guess Paul X, Daddy. Why?”
Dad picked up the heavy black telephone
receiver and began dialing a number by heart.
“His father owes me a favor. I’ll have him have
Paul take you to prom.”
Horror of horrors! A mental image of Mr. X laughing and Paul hooting and hollering at the audacity of my father demanding
Paul take me to the prom filled my mind’s eye. Next I saw Paul standing in the
center hallway at school surrounded by dozens of hangers-on, all laughing at
his animated story about the pitiful little Ginger Hamilton putting her daddy
up to asking Paul to take her to prom. The chortles and guffaws in my head made
my cheeks burn like I’d been slapped, hard.
I reached across my father’s desk and pushed
the plunger, ending the call.
“No, Daddy! You can’t ask him that! I’ll be the
laughingstock at school.” I’m sure my eyes were round with fear and anxiety.
“Are you sure? It’s really quite simple,” Dad
explained. “This will be an easy out for his father, and it’s a win-win
situation: Paul’s dad is released from his obligation, and you get Paul as a
prom date. All it’ll take is one phone call.” His hand got dangerously close to
the dial.
“I’m positive!” I thanked my father for his
offer.
Dad hadn’t tried to dismiss my situation. The fact he was willing to
trade power he held over another man just to make me happy was not lost on me.
This was a big deal to me, and he had acknowledged it in such a way that I now
realized prom held some mystical significance even to my father.
It occurred to me I could not just settle for a
warm body. If Daddy had been willing to sacrifice a boon for me to have the
prom date I wanted, that meant I needed to find a man of substance. I wasn’t
sure exactly why that was, but the
social message came through loud and clear.
That afternoon, at the dress shop I worked at,
I explained my dilemma to my best friend Darlene. She suggested the lead singer
in her fiance’s band. He and his girlfriend had recently broken up, so he was
single. He had just graduated from Marshall University, so he was sufficiently
manly (I had little in common with guys my age as far as dating interests went.
Strange as it sounds, grown men were much more accepting of my limits than high
school boys were. I was a fantastic wrestler, but a wrestling match was not my
idea of a fun way to end a date).
Darlene vouched for Phil’s good looks, sense of
humor, musical talents, etc. He sounded like a decent potential prospect. Time
was of the essence. I had Darlene finagle an invitation for me to come to that
evening’s band practice and see if he and I clicked.
The hunt was on.
[Part III tomorrow]
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